Mood

I don’t even remember who I know on tumblr anymore. But I suppose it’ll be good to get back into blogging frequently . 

If you and I (aka isomorphic aka lucyeatworld aka neuraldrifts aka arteriovenous, whichever of these incarnations you recall) were ever in contact, can you send me a message or something (so I can remember? lol like was i in a coma, no, I just left for a long ass time)? I know I was in a Psych fandom. 

I’ve been in such a mood this week, I don’t know if it’s my general outlook on my work is bleak or if I am in a rut. Those actually sound like the same thing. 

Work, how should I even begin?
 I feel like I am being undermined sometimes and most of all I feel very underappreciated. I also have begun to take things that are wildly trivial extremely personal (e.g. why a coworker didn’t ask me to go to lunch, yes stupid I know). Oh and with that, my fuse is shorter and I find myself losing my temper way more than usual. And when that happens, I beat myself up about what happened.

To make matters worse, my eye is slightly swollen and I haven’t slept properly for a couple of days. Compounded with the fact that my legs are sore from last gym session which makes it very hard to stand for long periods. 

Posting my outfits pics on instagram is not bringing me as much joy as before but I assume this is because I am simply not feeling the greatest so when I look at the photos I take I don’t like it. I stress so much about engagement, which is wrong because I never started that account to amount to anything except to track my outfits and maybe make a few friends here or there. 

I like to always remind myself that even in the lowest of times there will be good times. There has to be, it’s can’t always be bad. 

deb-oceans:

Cate Blanchett + suits

cassandor:

“Women are also rejected. Women also spend their teen years pining after dreamy boys who will never love them back. You don’t see us going around murdering people over it. You don’t see us setting up internet communities for the purpose of talking about how evil and shallow men are for not taking us to pound town. Women don’t go around killing men who don’t like them, because if you’re a woman in this society, a boy not liking you is the least of your problems. It is nowhere near the shittiest thing you’re going to be expected to “just deal with” in your life — one of those things being the fact that we are expected to “just deal with” how men are sometimes going to murder a bunch of people because they felt entitled to romantic attention from women. We are expected to “deal with” that, while never bringing up the terms “male privilege” or “male entitlement” or “toxic masculinity” and why those things so often lead to mass murder, on account of how that might really hurt the feelings of the men who have been gracious enough to not go on killing sprees.”

That Is Not What ‘Lovesick’ Is | Wonkette (via holyfiiire)

5tacks:

highs0ciety:

arabbara:

R.I.P. The 2976 American people that lost their lives on 9/11 and R.I.P. the 48,644 Afghan and 1,690,903 Iraqi and 35000 Pakistani people that paid the ultimate price for a crime they did not commit

this is the only september 11th post I’m reblogging

Same

piercesbrosnan:

It was Spin the Bottle, you psycho!

To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before (2018) dir. Susan Johnson

neuraldrifts:

isomorphic-archive:

I always speak about how I think negatively and all that, but I was thinking about how I always had to make plans and decide what to do when j and I hang out. So I told him I wanted him to decide for a change since I felt like I was making all the choices.

And he’s like “that’s because your decision is better.”
I…just… Didn’t expect that answer!!!

I’m totally that kind of person who thinks her SO is actually the best, and he is.

To me at least. I’m just really happy.

I don’t know how someone could make me this happy but at the same time today make me feel so incredibly sad and depressed. 

I almost wish I had never met him. 

It’s incredibly fascinating what a long time of self discovery and self care does.

I wrote this above post going through depression after my breakup - I was fucking sad ok. Like the kind of sadness that almost paralyzed you to the point where you wonder if you will ever feel better. You wonder if you could possibly find someone else let alone find yourself. I was filled with doubt and self hatred, I couldn’t get out of bed on some days. It was very difficult for me to share my struggle with people because I felt my humorous and kind personality was completely the opposite of someone who’s depressed. I was almost certain no one would believe I suffered.


But looking back, I’ve come a long way. While I’ve now met someone else and my ex and I are like great friends, it never surprises me how much the human body can endure. And how grateful I am for those experiences. That being said I never want to feel like that again.

isomorphic-archive:

I always speak about how I think negatively and all that, but I was thinking about how I always had to make plans and decide what to do when j and I hang out. So I told him I wanted him to decide for a change since I felt like I was making all the choices.

And he’s like “that’s because your decision is better.”
I…just… Didn’t expect that answer!!!

I’m totally that kind of person who thinks her SO is actually the best, and he is.

To me at least. I’m just really happy.

I don’t know how someone could make me this happy but at the same time today make me feel so incredibly sad and depressed. 

I almost wish I had never met him. 

Hey people I know well here!

I’m gonna be on indefinite tumblr hiatus within a week.
If you want to keep in touch, find me:

@lucyeatworld on Instagram
@lucyeatworld on Twitter

Most of you already follow me on various platforms. But I’m leaving tumblr for reals this time. A great place with a ton of memories but my love for gifs and edits isn’t there anymore.

my old isomorphic-archive.tumblr.com will be active as an archive for my old gifs.

dcfilms:

Gal Gadot attends the Warner Bros Presentation during Comic-Con International 2016 at San Diego Convention Center on July 23, 2016 in San Diego, California.